Finally my NCO bonding is over for thet first day i feel very happy we started to play some games and also play games using poker cards so we had alot of fun than we went to have out dinner at joe's near by coffee shop so joe ordered seafood than each one have to pay $5 so than we went back to his house than we staeted to play more games than after tha game we started to disscuss about our company attandence to after we chat it is around 2.30 so we turn in  for the day than the next morning i am very angry with joe's dog one of it pissed on my sleeping bag so i took my sleeping bag to the sink to like wash it so after that smarties woke up and ask we all if we want to have breakfast so we all said ok why not so we set off to kovan than we wnt to the prata shop go have out breakfast until we starffed ourself than we went to parade and the parade the 1st programe was PT and i wad like very shock!!!than i said WHAT THE FUCK PT SURE DIE ONE

I dont know why i feel like jumping off the building now a days i just feel lik its my time to go but i dont know why when i look at the window i lik felt lose and something tells me dont jump but when i got into my room something tells me to jump off its like the angle and the devil are fighting right now i cant do anything i just feel very lost

AM I IN THE WRONG??

Just now my tell me to help uncle to buy something than i told her that i am tired i dont feel like going to down than i said why you did not help him buy since u are at home the whole day than she got nothing to say after that she kicked my door and ask me to pay her back the money which i borrow from her i told her than by next week than i will pay her but in the mean time i pay her $10 1st than she started to keep looking at me so i asked her why are u looking at me so she started to keep asking me to return her the money till than i am so irratated i started scolded her than she kicked me so i punch her back than she ran to her room and grab  her belt than she started to wack me with her belt so i took my nunchaku so i wack her once back for self defence than she stared to bleed so i took a dry cloth and help my sis clean her up than my dad came home a started to scold me than i got very mad so i went back to my room n locked myself in the dark room and i asked myself am i in the wrong?and i told myself i should be the one in jail right now

i suddenly felt alone after u broke up with me if u also started to talk to me like very rude way but i rember last time u were not like that but suddenly i see u change alot but i really hop u can patch back with me but i am going to tell u this (if you dun like me please reject me but if u like me than please ans the question i ask u)
"will u patch back with me?"

I have a feeling that u like some other guy but u just dont want to tell me only but if u really like someone else just tell me if not i dont really feel good dont worry about breaking my heart cos its already broken into small bits so please just speak it out i dun wan u to suffer cos if u really hate me just tell me i wont blame u cos i know that i am not good enough for you.

Lying

I dont understand why people are always lying to me in school at home every where now i can only trust my brother terence he's the only 1 who can help me when i am in trouble i really hope that people can stop lying to me i just dont get it why u guys must lie to me is it fun i dont think so.

JIO me

fuck i am lik so bored at home and i am lik always cycling on my own can someone cycle with me cos i really love cycling with frens and i also lik to go long distance cycling so please if ur bored also call me for a ride i will be very happy to cycle with you but i have no extra bike to lend u so u must meet at at somewhere :)

Why cant u start the subject

I really dont understand why u are always asking me to start the subject on the phone i am like very lost u know i was lik digging my brains out to find a topic but i cant find one dont tell me u have nothing to say even i start the topic u sometimes will no reply me or even tell me that why are u asking the same thing every time? .If u say i am saying the same thing than why dont u talk to me.Its very irratating you know i really can take it already.So plz i hope u can do something about it if u wan to talk to me.

You broke my heart

I tod that we can have a long lasting relationship but i think i was wrong in the end i started to fell that you are trying to play with my feeling and i think u made the right choice but i made the wrong one and i hope u will know that i tried to spend time with you give u everything that i got but i cant belive that a guy ask u for stead n u dare to tell me that its very hard to reject frm that time on i started to lost trust in u.