why talk to me

i know you love me but every night i am the one waiting for you to done talking to your fren than i can call u but now i know something and i think u should talk to your fren more often than me cos i am just your boyfriend but since you told me before that you treat your frens as your first than i think as your boyfriend i think i am going to be second or third so its like i am just nothing to you your frens can keep u accompany on the phone but as for me i think that we have nothing to talk about anymore its been a long time since we had our own time together but now ur mom control you quite hard and i really feel that our relationship is falling a part HAIX!!!!!!

why cant you be like other girls they only text guy when they need to but you i really dont know you text guy like their ur boyfriend i really feel very lost in our relationship you are no different from my ex i am always the one starting topics but i tod that you are totally different from my ex but i was wrong well its too late to regrat now haix sometimes i really want to talk to you but i dont know what to talk about i always wear the ring that u and i both have but each time i see you taking it our from your wallet i felt very heart broken i always told myself that u will only love me and your only one but maybe i was wrong i tod u would text me when ur free but u did not i always wanted to tell u what i want to say but i dont have the courage to do so sometimes i really felt like i am going back to my old times smoking and drinking and playing shirts but i always tell myself  u have a gf now dont go back to your old times 

some how i really wish u can just understand me what i want and sometime when i talk to u you are still texting your frens so i always tod why bother talking to me when u have frens who can accompany you more and have more things to talk about 

Sianz exam are comming le i feel like dying soon i want to cycle from pasir ris to changi to east coast and from there to bedok resvivour than back home will anyone want to cycle with me on this sunday if the wheather is sunny if anyone want to cycle at east coast only feel free to tell me i will be very happy to cycle with u guys

What the fuck u this fucking chee bye father just becos u love ur daughter so much nw u think u can treat me like ur dog is it if u hate me say la i can jumo down the building in front of u now u can even take a video of it and pass it to the press and let the whole world know what kind of father are you only care more about ur daughter you only care about her u buy her anything she wants nt like me even if i pass my exam wad u get for me only 1 stupid bike that can go slower than a car what ur daughter wants u give her la huh and you always tell me no money in the end u like ur thing huh i ask u for $5 u say no money than u wan to buy a camera nikon d90 it cost $2000+ u got the money la if u got the money y not you buy a car say no money no money wad u like use master card visa la u this na bei chee bye please think la

Finally my NCO bonding is over for thet first day i feel very happy we started to play some games and also play games using poker cards so we had alot of fun than we went to have out dinner at joe's near by coffee shop so joe ordered seafood than each one have to pay $5 so than we went back to his house than we staeted to play more games than after tha game we started to disscuss about our company attandence to after we chat it is around 2.30 so we turn in  for the day than the next morning i am very angry with joe's dog one of it pissed on my sleeping bag so i took my sleeping bag to the sink to like wash it so after that smarties woke up and ask we all if we want to have breakfast so we all said ok why not so we set off to kovan than we wnt to the prata shop go have out breakfast until we starffed ourself than we went to parade and the parade the 1st programe was PT and i wad like very shock!!!than i said WHAT THE FUCK PT SURE DIE ONE

I dont know why i feel like jumping off the building now a days i just feel lik its my time to go but i dont know why when i look at the window i lik felt lose and something tells me dont jump but when i got into my room something tells me to jump off its like the angle and the devil are fighting right now i cant do anything i just feel very lost

AM I IN THE WRONG??

Just now my tell me to help uncle to buy something than i told her that i am tired i dont feel like going to down than i said why you did not help him buy since u are at home the whole day than she got nothing to say after that she kicked my door and ask me to pay her back the money which i borrow from her i told her than by next week than i will pay her but in the mean time i pay her $10 1st than she started to keep looking at me so i asked her why are u looking at me so she started to keep asking me to return her the money till than i am so irratated i started scolded her than she kicked me so i punch her back than she ran to her room and grab  her belt than she started to wack me with her belt so i took my nunchaku so i wack her once back for self defence than she stared to bleed so i took a dry cloth and help my sis clean her up than my dad came home a started to scold me than i got very mad so i went back to my room n locked myself in the dark room and i asked myself am i in the wrong?and i told myself i should be the one in jail right now

i suddenly felt alone after u broke up with me if u also started to talk to me like very rude way but i rember last time u were not like that but suddenly i see u change alot but i really hop u can patch back with me but i am going to tell u this (if you dun like me please reject me but if u like me than please ans the question i ask u)
"will u patch back with me?"

I have a feeling that u like some other guy but u just dont want to tell me only but if u really like someone else just tell me if not i dont really feel good dont worry about breaking my heart cos its already broken into small bits so please just speak it out i dun wan u to suffer cos if u really hate me just tell me i wont blame u cos i know that i am not good enough for you.

Lying

I dont understand why people are always lying to me in school at home every where now i can only trust my brother terence he's the only 1 who can help me when i am in trouble i really hope that people can stop lying to me i just dont get it why u guys must lie to me is it fun i dont think so.

JIO me

fuck i am lik so bored at home and i am lik always cycling on my own can someone cycle with me cos i really love cycling with frens and i also lik to go long distance cycling so please if ur bored also call me for a ride i will be very happy to cycle with you but i have no extra bike to lend u so u must meet at at somewhere :)